Great just when I was finally pulling myself out, I fall harder than ever. I feel like I am not making my own decisions, that I am just going threw life on a whim not caring much about myself. I have always put others before me, but when will I ever start carrying about myself? When will I ever decide enough is enough? I love helping others, and I will forever do it, but what if me "helping" is actually hurting someone? Am I being so selfish that I am doing that? Or is it selflessness? I don't even know anymore. I feel like my world is a blur.. Days go by, I smile, laugh, live, but ever day at the end of the day it's always there. That though